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Currently i'm watching Rachael Ray, hence my title...and i'm getting ready for work blahh. Today I don't have classes sooo on tuesdays and thursdays i always work lunch which isnt bad because i usually end up with like $50 in tips for doing barely any waitinggg. But anyyway i cant really describe how i have been feeling lately. About a week ago i was in a HUGE rut and admittedly i was extremely depressed but i feel like since i have been back on meds the mood is better and i would also hope to contribute it to the fact that i am nourished now and that helps the mood out too. I often get urges to restrict and i have to go back in my head and list out every pro to following my meal plan, and while it takes a while it usually works, which leads me to my dinner last night. I had Grilled Chicken, Garden Salad and wait for it wait for it..PASTA, it is my numero uno fear food and i made quite a large list of pros in my head as to why I should and it and by golly i didnt and i'm still alive to talk about it. I just want anyone else who is reading this and struggling to know that it is possible to get through it, because i feel like i am getting stronger and stronger every time i give myself a little challenge, and i do have my off days but im starting to believe that recovery is possiblee. ok so soorryy for the long post have a gloriousss thursdayyy. love love love


My Dinnerr last night!