Happy Bunny Bunnyy Foo Foo Day!

Just thought i would leave yo with a little pic of my bro and besttt friend Jason, this was on a cruiseee on New Years! Any whooo onto the post...


So this shallll be brief but i had a GREAT time at dinner last night with my family. I stepped outside of my box i had a salmon with dinner but i indulged in some cheesey potatoes and a couple bites of cheesecake which may not souund like a lot but it was a big step for me. I had a really good time just hanging out with my family which we dont do enough of. lol when we got home we watched a TON of funny youtube videos lol we are sooo cool!! then this morning i woke up SO early and went for the most peaceful jog then helped momsyy prepare for easter. I dont know what it is guys i guess maybe the weather or my anti depressants are working but i have been feeling GREAT just soo soo happy. I think it also has a lot to do with my brother being around cuzz i lovee the bro! easter is going to be good some fam is coming over to wine and dine and my mom gave me a cutieee little easter basket which i will photog laterrr! have a GREAT easter ladiess i hope the bunny was goooood to ya'll!

Faja's Fiestaaaa!

HAA well tonight is my dads little dinn dinn celebration for his 50th birthday!! He has a huge surprise coming up in a few weeksss but i will recap that when it happens! i am just super excited to go out to dinner tonight (shock anddd awe) buttt it is because my brother is home from school for the weekend so we are all going out as a familyy so it will be nice!! I love my brother he is always fun to hang out with and i dont get to see him as much as i usually do. He keeps me calm at dinner so my anxiety stayss on the downnn low! anyway im off to get ready! have a good weekend/passover/easterr etc. chicass!

Hello, Hellooo

Good morning Bloggette's!
It has been a nice morning becausee it is FINALLY SUNNNYY yahhoo! I went for a nice jog this morning and felt the sunn shining in my face it was glorious! Tuesdays and Thursdays I dont have classes which is incredible except for monday, wednsdays and fridays when i have classes on overload! Soo today I am just going to bumb around and do some homework then i have to workkk boo :-/.... oh welll. I am in a reallyy good mood today, until i have to work. Ohh well i'm off to make a delicious egg white omelet with some serious veggie action and cinnnnamon raison toastyy. Peace out Girl Scouts!

It's Raining It's Pouring...

Me and Daddioo




Me and my Momsss

BOOO the weather is not cooperating. I want to have a little word with mothaa nature because i dont appreciate her antics. I'm feeling a lot less blue today, I woke up early and went for a leisurely jog around my town it was really refreshing. It put my mind at ease. I feel like i obviously used exercise before as an obsessive compulsive coping skill but now i am starting to find it much more relaxing and enjoyable. I am finding the the happy medium between moderate exercise and intense so i can find a healthy place in exercise. I had a little meltdown last night and my mom talked me down and there is something about her really believing that everything will be okay that soothes me and I really believe her. I have been blessed with the most supportive mother ever and i cant believe how lucky i am to have such supportive friends. I think now is the time in my life where i need to realize everything that is GOOD in my life and when i think about it there is a lot, and of course there will always be the bad but the good clearly overpowers the negative. I guess what i'm trying to say is to think more positively because i have so much to offer others and others have given me so much strength and advice and I AM NOT alone and i need to remember that. Have a great day Lovelie's <3<3

Moving In, Moving on

So sorry i havent written in a bit i have been struggling as of late. What's new when i am constantly trying to figure out life. Currently i am just trying to figure out WHAT IS IT THAT I WANT OUT OF LIFE? I just dont know what will make me happy. I have been so depressed lately and have let my weight go in a tail spin, i hate to say it and at the same time Ed loves to say it but i am down to the weight i was when i was admitted my first time into treatment and i just dont know what to do. I honestly dont think i can stomach going back into residential because i just dont think it helps me, it works for like weeks... and then BAM its back. i am at a crossroads and i dont know which direction i will take and what it will take for me to pick the right direction. I wish i could write something profound and positive on here and i wish i was writing how completely fabulous i was doing but that wouldnt be honest and i feel all of you deserve honesty. I need to find myself somehow and figure out the path i want to take in life that will lead me to health and happineess. BLAH i dont know i will be better about commenting on all your blogs have a good night and i will leave you with this quote ...


“Our destiny changes with our thought; we shall become what we wish to become, do what we wish to do, when our habitual thought corresponds with our desire.” Orison Swett Marden